End of a Nightmare

November 7, 2020

President Joe Biden. President Joe Biden. President Joe Biden.

I keep saying this over and over to myself the way I used to write the name Laura Varga before my wedding. Like something amazing was happening and I just had to keep repeating it to really believe it.

It's over. Today was the beginning of the end of a national nightmare. I'm sure the start of another big headache because half of our country still likes an autocratic narcissist in charge...but today something amazing happened. 

The band around my head loosened. My shoulders relaxed. I can breathe. I feel like I just came up for air.

The last four years have been an excruciating exercise in patient, forbearance and understanding. Day after day of being told wrong is right took its toll. Knowing that I had friends and family who had been manipulated by fear into thinking civility and norms were "libtard" objectives. I have permanent marks where I've had to bite my tongue so hard over and over. 

I've lost some friends. Some I have kept and revamped our connection. I realized the dark side of my Trump supporter friends and family. Realized that they can overlook the worst behavior if it calms their overfed fears over money or foreign invasion or people of a different color/race/persuasion. Realized that a communication outlet explosion has bred a host of extremist sites and channels that can spew vitriol and lies without impunity...and with immense damage to the truth and the minds of my loved ones. It has broken my heart sometimes and broken my spirit many times. There are millions upon millions of people who are okay being led by a man I feel is horrible and that they feel reflects them.

I can't forget that I have also made some truly wonderful new friends along the way. Some who are family or friends of the Trump supporters that I lost! We commiserated and supported each other through the worst times these years. They have been the only silver lining.

But for now, for today, it is a win for sanity. For civility. For normalcy. For science. For facts. For love.

I think I will sleep well tonight. I will pray very very very hard that our new President and our new Congress will be able to once again reach across the aisle and work together for ALL of us. We are still in the middle of a raging pandemic and we need medical and financial plans to keep the whole country healthy and working. We can do it. We will do it. With the right people in place doing the things that we should be doing, we can make progress. If, once more, we can put the good of all Americans above the good of some.

God Bless America. 

Thank you, Lord.