August 20, 2022
It's Saturday afternoon at 5pm on the last day of our vacation week in Massnutten at our timeshare. I'm in a quiet townhome getting things packed and washed to take home for our last week with our youngest before college drop-off. I'm relaxed and rested and thoroughly enjoying myself. Not a Xanax all week.
This is weird. How did this happen?
Aside from being able to take a stash of 20mg prednisones every day to take care of my IBS/migraine/aches/disabling fatigue and my normal Tramadol, I didn't really have to max medicate.
I haven't been this relaxed in months - or years - and I think it's because the DOJ found confidential files in Trump's Mar-a-lago (?) resort basement. I'm hopeful the guy will be arrested/indicted/convicted/ sentenced/retired from elected office life. (Although I'm not sure the Saudis or Russians don't already have secure info they shouldn't have). The GOP seems to be going down in flames with him and so many women have gotten registered for the vote since they overturned Roe v Wade that I am increasingly optimistic that the GOP won't be in charge again any time soon. So that saves our country. And the Congress is passing hand over hand legislation in the last 2 weeks to help Medicare drugs costs, climate change incentives, etc, which gives me hope for my children and grandchildren.
It's been hard to be married to a conservative right now, though. He wants to believe the GOP is still just conservative, not crazy, and he's sure the Democrats will spend us into debt - although the Democrats always have to balance the budget after the GOP spends into oblivion. He's all about the dollar and the stock market and not interested in the federal government keeping a basic security net for all Americans; old, poor, unemployed or homeless. And that is where my heart lives. We see things from a completely different perspective and I hope that things will settle down in the future so we won't have to argue about it anymore.
I know more about our federal and state governments than I ever have in my 60 year old life and more than I ever wanted to - but I want to know what is happening. If my life is destroyed, I'm not going down ignorant and misinformed.
But for now, the knowledge I've been able to find and read gives me hope for the first time in years. The trend is turning. The majority of the US are sane and compassionate voters and we will influence our laws and regulations again. So I can relax. I can leave things in President Biden's hands and know he will do the right thing for our country.
So I do pour art projects on the hill, eat way too much and scroll away on my phone with hope, not fear.
Now for the big fear - sending my baby boy off to college in 7 days. Send me prayers - L
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