Thursday, March 24, 2022
Today is a quiet day. I didn't work, was able to sleep, didn't wake up with a headache and no one was running around the house when I came down for coffee. I have time to think and let my thoughts gel into something coherent and it's wonderful.
I'm sitting in my office on the futon actually writing my own thoughts instead of reading someone else's on Twitter. It has become my haven of sanity in the media war on reality. I can't watch any of the cable news networks anymore - the bias is jarring. The network newscasts are not as bad, but brief and don't show the horror of the day.
Today is Judge Katanji Brown Jackson's fourth(?) day of confirmation hearings for the Supreme Court. The Judiciary Committee Republicans are the worst I've ever seen in my lifetime. And she is the best candidate I've ever seen in my lifetime. So much cognitive dissonance happening there that I can't actually watch because I know how it will tear at my mind, heart and soul. So I play the clips that I know are good to try to believe we will get through this in one piece.
It has been almost a month since Russia starting their attack on Ukraine. And yet, Ukraine prevails, and I am elated. My husband's extended family is still there and we hope are safe. So much is unraveling everywhere around autocrats and I hope and pray it is to undermine them all.
Former President TFG is still not paying for any of his crimes and I keep hoping it is a matter of time. I am assuming they are indicting everyone from bottom to top so that by the time they get to him, there is no one left to doubt it. Except his fans. They will ultimately riot when it happens and I don't look forward to that. I wonder if that's why Garland is waiting as long as possible.
On the personal front, I am on day 40 of my 100 Day Project for my art. I spent the first part of it struggling with my kidney stone from 1/14 to 3/9 but did manage to do a few little things and my graphite portrait of my friend Melanie's mom. That was wonderful and I did love doing that:
I've lost too many days already to my body failings in 2022. I fought those kidney stones for 2 months and it was just awful. Two weeks later I think I'm finally recovered. (I just found out this week that you can DIE from kidney stones and I truly believe I would have by this point in my life). Now that is over, I'm just in time to find out what is going on with my stomach. Can't eat, everything tastes weird, lots of burping, losing weight. It's weird. Have a few tests coming up to see what's going on. Then to maybe fix my teeth and my deviated septum before my spine blows up for good. And squeeze some dentist and rheumatology appts in there too. It's really becoming a full time job to fix my stuff!
This was the first time I lost any real time at work for a health ailment. I was out a full week the week that I had my lithotripsy this time. And lost a whole day just this past Monday for awful vertigo. I think it's a partial migraine/sinus thing but woke up puking with the room spinning and it just didn't go away for days. Still have to take my time sitting up after sleeping at night.
At least I have a game plan for retirement now. Since I don't have a pension, it was always just work until I can't anymore and who knows when that will be? But after some discussion with my husband, I'll stop at 62 (just 1.5 years!) and file for disability...if I make it that far. Not sure I will. I need to get/keep my papers in order so I'll be all ready when it's time to file. I can't imagine anyone would say no at my age, but it would be great to get full retirement benefits at 62 instead of 67. If they don't change the rules.
So the US government is a hot mess, Ukraine is on fire and my body is breaking down. It's an interesting time to live in. I'm really not into it. Wonder if I'll live to see it recover?
Who knows? -
L
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